4.05.2011

Thoughts on motherhood


Rainy days make me wish my kids were home with me all of the time. I love these kinds of days. They feel cozy to me. But they would be more enjoyable with my family home with me doing cozy things, homey things like reading, playing games, building forts to hide out in, or elaborate toy cities, watching movies, making cookies, sewing, or playing quietly. It's days like this that I wish I homeschooled all my children and that they could be with me always. Don't get me wrong, I love a good by-myself-day as much as the next mom, but mostly I love being with my kids. (It also probably explains why I take my kids on long road trips where we can be all cooped up together in the car for weeks on end. It's just one of the reasons anyway.) Though I work hard to teach my children independence and give them opportunities to do things on their own and to grow, I really enjoy being able to watch over them, to give them comfort, encouragement and love. I guess it's all part of the growing up process - for them and for me. And so I send them off every morning and look forward to their return at the end of the day. I guess that might just be a little bit how our Heavenly Father feels about us. He has sent us here to grow and learn. He watches over us and waits for us to return home to Him. So, in the meantime, I will enjoy the privilege of being a mother. I will keep my children close, while still letting them learn and grow. I will do my best. And I will savor the moments I have with my children as we all work on returning home.

4.03.2011

General Conference Weekend

I love General Conference weekend. It's usually a little bit more relaxed and we enjoy spending time together to listen to the prophet. I always hear messages that seem just for me. The kids still request that we play conference BINGO. Although Hazel is the only one that actually plays. The others just want the candy. But, it's not a big deal anymore. Since they are older they listen without the BINGO game to keep them focused. The Legos come out and everyone listens and plays quietly.

I loved the second speaker today for the morning session (of course I can't remember his name). His message about trials being the pruning that the Gardener desires us to endure so that we can be what he wants us to be really got to me. Also the metaphor that raising easy children versus challenging ones is like being enrolled in Parenting 101 versus Parenting 505. I really related to that one. I hope to I can graduate from that 505 class some day.

Today we got up early to take bluebonnet pics. It was overcast, which is good so that everyone doesn't have to squint, but makes for kind of gray pictures. Maybe I'll try again tomorrow in different flowers. I'll miss this tradition. Hopefully there are wildflowers all over in Kansas as well.